Serenity

I was watching OWN one night.  It was a tiring day I chased after my son with my daughters' help.  I did not do much just tried to maintain.  That is all I am doing these days.  Just trying to maintain.  Maintain our house.  Maintain my sanity.  That is what I am doing.  Maintaining.

Anyway, I was watching Paula Dean on OWN.  She was talking about how she would say the 'Serenity' prayer when she was down and things looked hopeless.  She said one day she finally understood the prayer.

God, give us grace to accept with serenity

the things that cannot be changed,

Courage to change the things

which should be changed,

and the Wisdom to distinguish

the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,

Enjoying one moment at a time,

Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,

Taking, as Jesus did,

This sinful world as it is,

Not as I would have it,

Trusting that You will make all things right,

           If I surrender to Your will,

          So that I may be reasonably happy in this life

          And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

I came to understand it myself thanks to Paula Dean.

I cannot change that I have MS.  I do understand I do have some limitations.  I do get fatigued when I have a lapse.  An orange or a piece of cake gives me energy and it takes care of the lack of energy.  Anything to give me quick energy will do.  I guss fruit would be healthier but a piece of cake is so delicious and sinful.  I love cake!!

OK I will try to eat better.   Excercise.  Running after a one year old is all the excercise I really want.  OK  I will go for walks during hours when it is not so hot outside.  Maybe the evening is good.  I live in an area where there is not a lot of shade or sidewalk.  I will have to enlist the help of my girls.

Now for a job.  I am looking for a position.  A position having to do with the legal field.  It will have to be full time in order to receive benefits.  Well it is not easy.  I do not have legal experience.  It does not matter that I worked in one of the legal offices at the school system.   I do not have court room experience.  In order to have court room experience I have to find a job to gain experience.  I have other things that are in my way.  I have to take it one day at a time like the prayer says.