I can not do it any more. My kids are suffering because I do not move as well as I used to. My pride refuses to ask for help I was going to make this my last post. But I woke this morning with a can do attitude. I just have to wait for my legs to heal from all the "resting" I have been doing. If resting means keeping up with the house hold chores. Then I have been resting a lot.
My kids maybe mature for their age, but they still need mommy to kiss booboos and to tell them when it is time to eat something.
I have to be their confidant and their protector. Well maybe not their protector.
That is the dog's job.
The Brown Woman Diaries
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
It cannot end like this
I recently found out that I may never get any money from opening my soul. That is fine. I write for me. One thing I learned is that it is OK to put me first. I am the one who has the incurable disease. I am the one who dreads having to take a shower.when did taking a shower become an Olympic event. That is OK.
I will focus on my Avon business. I know it is crazy to do something that may never bring in any money. I never was a sane person. I am happy and relaxed. I am still mommy. I kiss the boo-boos. I make it all better. I wish someone could kiss my boo boo and make it better.
I will focus on my Avon business. I know it is crazy to do something that may never bring in any money. I never was a sane person. I am happy and relaxed. I am still mommy. I kiss the boo-boos. I make it all better. I wish someone could kiss my boo boo and make it better.
Saturday, June 1, 2013
Accomplishments (Hope)
I accomplished a lot this week. I walked down the stairs without fear. I am up at this ridiculous hour thinking about how to make my business successful. I do not regret my decision to be a stay at home mom.
I do regret my decision to come down the stairs. The peanut butter sandwich I ate is making me sleepy. I am going to stop here and go back to bed. I will continue at a more sane time.
I think now is more sane time. My mother is not in town. Some of the pressure is off. I do not have to put a brave face on. MS is something I would not wish on my worse enemy.
I can be scared for a week.
I do have to put a brave face on for my kids and husband. Even that face is getting harder and harder to wear. I want to cry but I do not. If I start to cry I am afraid I will not stop.
I do regret my decision to come down the stairs. The peanut butter sandwich I ate is making me sleepy. I am going to stop here and go back to bed. I will continue at a more sane time.
I think now is more sane time. My mother is not in town. Some of the pressure is off. I do not have to put a brave face on. MS is something I would not wish on my worse enemy.
I can be scared for a week.
I do have to put a brave face on for my kids and husband. Even that face is getting harder and harder to wear. I want to cry but I do not. If I start to cry I am afraid I will not stop.
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