Is it too much to ask?

I decided today not to work this weekend.  It is the start of the Easter Holiday.  If my kids get a break from school.  Why can I not take a break from worrying.  I am going to NOT worry today.  What ever happens will be what is meant to happen.  I may not have any control of the outcome but I have control of how I feel about it.

I am the luckiest woman (Conquering Fear)

Today I realized how lucky I am.  I also realized how spoiled I am.  I tried to be a martyr.  Only one man was on the cross.  There is no room for me and there will never be room for me.  He said he would carry me and I realize it is OK to accept help.  I do not have to carry everyone on my shoulders.  I think my MS got worse because I was rushing my recovery.  I was never one to be patient.  Being at home showed me that I am loved and it is OK to not have control.  One fear down and many more to go. 

Getting Over Myself

Today I realized how lame I was being.  During my time of the month I get so dramatic and tired.  My last post was very dramatic. 

The illusion of control (Fear)

I realized I am facing my biggest fears.  That fear is to lose control.  Normally I run from anything I am afraid of or that I may fail at.

I have no control over who reads this blog.  I have no control over if any one will buy Avon.   If it will bring in any money.  I have no control if anything I do will cure my MS.  I have no control if little man will finally pee in the Potty.  I do not have any control.

The only thing I can control is what I do when faced with challenges.  I decided not to run from my challenges and my lack of control.  I just have to try.  If I fail at least I can say I tried. 

Before doing anything I always ask myself if I would do this for free.  If  the answer is yes, then I do it.

I would be a stay at home mom.  I would sell Avon.  I love meeting new people.

Funny for today: We tell little man not to steal food.  However, he has a mind of his own.  If there is food that he likes.  He will find a way to take it and eat it.