Do I offend you?

I was looking back at my posts.  Why are you all so nasty?  Why am I so nasty?   I try to be inspirational and positive.  You do not want to read that.  You want to read my thoughts on why men are fascinated with their penis.  You want to read why humans suck.  I am happy today and do not feel like writing depressing topics.  I have no job.  There is one job I really want working with the JCPC (Juvenile Justice and Delinquency Prevention Council).  I have a lot of obstacles but I really want the job.  Working with Avon is fun but it is not the job I want.  Staying home with the kids is fun.  I really want the JCPC job.   I would love every aspect of the job.  The door WCPSS seems to have closed.  It is o.k.  because I survived harsher things.  I can survive this.

Tired of Trying

I hit a wall today.  I try to be up and happy for my kids.  I am not too happy today.  I am tired.  Tired of looking on the bright side.  I just want to let God take care of me.  I hope He does not mind taking care of me.  I am tired because I try so hard to take care of everyone else.

Sacrifice

We make plentty of sacrifices in our life.  I sacrificed my body in order to be a mother.  I do not mean gaining a few pounds.  I would actually have loved to gain a few pounds.  I actually mean I cannot walk without limping or being in pain.  I am sure this will get better once I go to the doctor. 

I read the MS blog and get alot of tips. 

I am already tired of my at home business.  I do not enjoy it.  I miss working at a computer.  I know an at home business would be good for everyone but me.  I do not want to work from home.  I know it is what is good for everyone.  I do not want my home to be where I work.  I want my home to be where I relax and enjoy my kids. 

I did learn a little more about finance and promotion. 

I pray that the job I really want becomes available. 

Why are men fascinated with their penis?

Starting as early as one.  A male is fascinated by his penis.  It is a strange thing coming out of his body that needs to be played with.   And boy does he play with it.  He plays with it, tugs it, and there is always a look of  wonderment when he discovers how much fun it is.  I know little boys are not doing it for sexual gratification. They are doing it because it is a plaything that is conveniently attached to their body.

It seems that the fascination never ends.  Look at your man one day.  I mean really look at him.  Where are his hands 90% of the time.  What in the world could he possibly be looking for in his pocket.  Why does he not put a stronger powder on that area if it itches so much.  What is with smelling your hand after you scratch that area. 

I know that there are many men out there who do not do that all the time (at least not around anyone they view as respectful.)  

OK enough of the crazy talk.  I am facing a difficult decision.  Do I go  back out to work and be stressed out.  Making me sicker than I already am or do I stay home and take naps with my son.  I am  struggling with this.   What would you do? 

The type of MS I have the relapses can be difficult.  They do damage to my body.  What should I do? Return to a world where I stress myself out trying to please others or do I stay in my own little world where people forgive me when I make a mistake.  I am a people pleaser and I hate it when I disappoint others.  What do I do?