HE Does Not Like Me!!

Have you ever felt that life was beating you up?  I have felt that way for some time. 

This has not been a good week.  First I fell down.  The bruise on my arm is healing very well.  I nearly fell down the stairs while holding my son.  Luckily my daughter was behind me and caught me before I came tumbling down the stairs.  My husband is feeling stressed.  He does not talk to me.  He never was a big talker.  I stopped taking it personally when he snaps my head off. 

My youngest daughter and my son are the only ones in our family that are having a good week.  She got to see the 'Avengers' with her father.  She loved being the center of attention.  Her father did not like the the new Hulk.  My daughter loved everyone including the Hulk.  She even liked the characters whose movies she had not seen. 

With the bad week came doubt about whether or not I am doing the right thing.  I will miss being at home.  I am torn about whether or not to be home.  However, I know that there is more of a chance of an accident happening if I am home alone.  I also felt very unloved.  I started to think, "Why have you foresaken me?" 

Having MS does limit the type of work  I can do.  I have to think about if I am going to be stressed out doing this type of job.  It is difficult to find something that will allow me to have minimal stress. Will I be allowed to eat when I want?  Will it be air conditioned?  Will there be alot of walking?  So much to consider when looking for a job.

I had my doubt then I say my mantra.  "Why not me?"

I have learned so much.  My husband may have his moments but he always apologizes.  My daughters help me more than anyone knows.  They have matured and stepped up to the plate.  My son even laughs when he makes a mistake. 

I learned that the only thing making me unhappy is me.