Today I am not so angry. I am still not sleeping well. The baby sleeps in his own bed through the night.
I learned that I do not have to run every time he cries. It relieves some of the stress. I do not have to be supermom. I can just be mom.
I still worry about bills. Then I hear my kids laugh at each other. They are good kids. I have dreams and I will one day realize those dreams. There are steps I have to take.
Step One: I need to find a job.
Step Two: I have to trust my husband and myself. We both have to learn to manage our money better.
Step Three:I have to learn to trust others again. I have to get back to the place where I was a giving person.
Step Four: I have to let go of old hurts.
All of this sounds good when you write it down. It is harder to do. Much harder.
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