Letting Go

Some of you may have heard 'let go and let God'.  I am not ashamed to tell you I never really understood the saying.  Today I finally understood. 

My mortgage is late.  Unpaid bills are piling up. 

I did not think about any of it today.  I watched my kids be silly.  I made sure my kids ate their dinner.  I was mommy. 

I do not think my kids were too happy to have old mommy back.  I was easy on them.  To be honest I have spoiled them from the moment they were born.  I guess since I was told I would not be a good mother so long ago that I have been trying to prove that I am worthy of being a mom. 

 I realized today that they need old mommy as much as they need new mommy.

I let go and stopped worrying.  I stopped worrying about if I was a good mom and I just let my self be a good mom.  I let go. 

I stopped worrying about bills.  I let go. 

I watched the 'Lion King' with my kids.  I sang 'Hakuna Matata'.  After all it means no worries.  (You can learn so much from cartoon movies.)

I have obstacles but no worries.  I let go.