Job Hunt

I am still plugging away at finding a job.  I am getting a little depressed.  OK a lot depressed.  I keep wondering what more I can do.  I cannot think of anything.  When I lost my job at the school system people said it was because I needed a break from work.  That was a bunch of crap.  I needed help. 

I need help now.  I just spent the morning running after a very energetic one year old. 

I do not ask for help because no one wanted to help me before and I do not trust anyone now. 

They say just call and I will help you.  When you call them too much they feel that you are not helping yourself.  They get tired of you.

I do not need their charity.  I need a job. 

I do not want to jump into any job.  Physical labor is not an option for me.  I want to find a job that I can be at for years to come.  I want to be able to use my talents.

I am starting to believe that I am not good enough.