I am scared that no one will read this blog. Scared that I am making the wrong decisions. Scared that one day my husband will come home from work and find me dead on the floor because I tripped down the stairs and broke my neck. There are days (especially on days when my joints hurt especially bad) that I wonder if God has forsaken me.
I often wonder if I have courage because I am always scared. I am aspired by the courageous people around me and I wonder if I measure up.
I see the person who walks away from an unhealthy marriage. I am sure that person was scared and alone. They have to find their way. They move on to better and greater things.
I see the person who forgives someone even when they have caused them so much pain.
I see the person who works in order to better themselves by returning to school even when they have obstacles in their path.
There is the person who follows their dreams even when people talk badly about them. They follow their heart. They work hard. Even when they are told that they need to find a real job.
This is what I see. Everyone has something they fear. These are just a few examples of courage. I pray for courage everyday. I think about the movie Green Lantern. (I said it once and I will say it again. You can learn a lot from movies.) In the movie the hero is told that courage is not the absence of fear. Well I have enough fear to go around. It makes me wonder if I have courage. Is it just a bravado and I really do not have any courage. I will investigate further and get back with you.
Do you do things that scare you? You have courage because I said so!!
I guess my investigation is over. That was quick. I guess I do have courage. Anyone who has to get out of bed with a smile on their face even when their legs cause them so much pain has to have courage. Right?
You have courage because, God has your back. Remember that during a test the teacher is always quiet. You may not know it God is carrying you right now. Love you.
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