I hate to say it but it really does suck. On days when it is too mild enough for me to go outside it rains. Having MS sucks because I cannot go outside on nice days because it is too hot. I cannot go outside on rainy days because I could slip. Who wants to play in the rain anyway?
That is it! I am moving to somewhere where it does not get too hot or rain a lot. Wait there is no where I can go. I will just find something wrong with there.
It rains sometimes. It gets hot sometimes. Global warming is not fun for an MS patient.
I just have to face it. I am mad I have MS. I want what is best for my kids. I am realizing I am not what is right for them right now. I am mad and depressed. I want to be but I am not what is right for them. I am trying to be what is right for them but if I push myself too hard I get sick.
They remember a mother that loved the outdoors. They remember a mother that ran outside. Now I am lucky to walk a great distance. They remember a mother who did everything for them.
I don't want to be sad anymore. I don't want to worry about bills anymore. I want to work and be the best I can be.
Gosh! I am getting sick of me! Quick read a happier blog.
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