Bad Day

Ever had one of those days where everything seems to be going wrong.  Well I had one of those days.  Then I realized I started my period early. 

You may have one of those days when you wonder why does this keep happening to me.  It is very similar to one of those wrong days. 

I had one of those days.  Actually a couple of those days. 

I was tired of being the forgiving one.  I was tired of being the understanding one.  I was just plain tired.

I wanted to scream you know I just want to be left alone.  I wanted to just listen to 'The Lazy Song' and read a book.  Then my kids came in and made me laugh.  I was not upset anymore.  My side hurt a little from laughing but there was no other pain.  That is unusual for me.

My husband said that I am not supposed to do everything.  It is  o.k. to lay down and rest.  I know that it is o.k.  I then hear my parents voice in the back of my mind.  "I don't understand how you can have your house like this."  I want to scream to get out of my house and don't come back.  I don't do that of course.  It would be rude and I already did that and they told my brother to see what was wrong with me. 

How about I have MS.  I deal with fatigue.  I deal with the occasional ache and pain which I think is actually me getting older. 

I can not tell them that of course because I run the risk of them wanting to check on me all the time. 

I look healthy and that is what they will see.  That is what I will be.

Mandacity... Lies and Liars.

Why do I write this blog then.  I know they may read it.  I guess I don't care anymore.

The following came to me one day.  Hide in plain sight.  That is what I am doing.  I am hiding in plain sight.  I have never mentioned the blog to them and I never will.