Accomplishments (Hope)

I accomplished a lot this week.  I walked down the stairs without fear.  I am up at this ridiculous hour thinking about how to make my business successful.  I do not regret my decision to be a stay at home mom. 
I do regret my decision to come down the stairs.  The peanut butter sandwich I ate is making me sleepy.  I am going to stop here and go back to bed. I will continue at a more sane time.

I think now is more sane time.  My mother is not in town.  Some of the pressure is off. I do not have to put a brave face on.  MS is something I would not wish on my worse enemy.

I can be scared for a week. 

I do have to put a brave face on for my kids and husband.  Even that face is getting harder and harder to wear.  I want to cry but I do not.  If I start to cry I am afraid I will not stop.